I find it absolutely fascinating to pause and reflect on how differently I see life today than I did just 11 years ago. This past weekend I celebrated 11 years of marriage to the most wonderful lady I know. What an unbelievable blessing to live life with someone so terrific!
So, when I think back to 11 years ago (and remember the awesome side-swipe hairdo that accompanied that stage of life) my concerns were wrapped up in finishing my senior year of college (and getting to live off the salary that my new bride would be making) and living in a house other than the one I grew up in for the first time. In so many ways looking back, life seemed so simple and free of cares. My plan was to become a middle school math teacher, golf all summer, and someday think of having kids.
Well, I never became a teacher in the classroom, we've moved 4 times, now live 900 miles from where I grew up, have two great kids and my golf game has become very rusty. It's not how I drew it up or would have ever expected it to look today.
But...I wouldn't change it for any other life. It is the life God has blessed me with and I appreciate everything about it. And I am now amazed that I have come to the realization that I have no deep desire to attempt to figure out where I'll/we'll be 11 years from now. My desire is to take each day with my eyes focused on Jesus that I would be willing to go where he asks me to go and do what he wants me to do. And, even though on many levels there are many more cares of life now than 11 years ago, there is nothing more important than becoming a sold-out and obedient follower of Jesus Christ.
It's good Bob it's good!
ReplyDeleteNow, I like to pride myself on being open to spontaneity, but I'll admit - the idea of not planning my own future kind of scares me. It's not that I'm not open to different outcomes, just so long as those outcomes are within the range of what I want them to be. Hmmm... maybe I try too hard to control my life. I think that sometimes, with my Open Theist perspective, I tend to forget that just because God doesn't control every detail of the universe doesn't mean that He doesn't want me to give some of the control over to Him (if that makes any sense). This gives me much to ponder.
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